SOUTH FLORIDA IN AUGUST - FROM THE DEPTHS OF HELL!

 Preface

August 4th, Friday, and it's 6:30 p.m. and the temp outside is 83 F (feels like 95). The low tonight is suppose to be 78. I'll believe it when I see it. This has been a brutal summer!

Story

Almost every day in July was FL over 100 degrees! We even hit 121! If you have to go out and DO anything in that heat, it's the feels like heat that will get you. If the humidity is down below 60% then it's tolerable, for 5-10 minutes, but if not, there's no working in that heat.

I feel so bad for those workers on roofs, construction, or anything outside. They have to have breaks and water or we will loose some of them to heat stroke! 

James says that the way things are going, we will be living in the best place to survive the weather changes. South Florida. REALLY?? The heat trough across the US is bringing our temps to places that have never had to deal with a 100 degrees, ever. 

Conclusion

I don't think we can fix this. I don't think the humans will survive. Once we are gone, the Earth and its inhabitants can grow and thrive. "Thanks for all the fish."

EXISTENCE VS. LIVING

PREFACE

Existence: the fact or state of living or having objective reality. A being of entity.

Living: the pursuit of a lifestyle of the specified type.

STORY

You can exist from day to day. Satisfying the elements of daily life that continues existence. A human being on life support with minimal brain activity or in a coma, exists. But is that living? If a person is aware of their surroundings, receives the minimum to survive, but does not move forward in the pursuit of improving or changing their life, is that living?

These questions can be asked about every existing human being. Those in a war zone just trying to survive today. Those houseless on the street. Those in assisted-living facilities, prisons, loveless marriages, single people with no family or friends, etc.... We are born into existence alone. We die alone. In between, we live our lives either by choice or by chance. So much effects how our lives unfold but we, for the most part, decide to continue existing.

What happens when a person loses the will to survive? No matter how many loved ones they are surrounded by, they just don't have the passion for anything. Nothing to look forward to each day. Looking for joy and not finding it. Existing, but not living.

CONCLUSION

I have cared for others in my life to the exclusion of self-consideration. Worked hard to improve myself through education to find my place in the world. I found joy through teaching. I found joy with a soulmate (for 20 years). I brought a child into the world and dedicated myself to raising that child to be a loving, caring, giving, independent, and productive human being. (I got something wrong there. How or what did I do to be pushed away and abandoned? It's soul crushing.) 

So I exist now, one day to the next. I am alive but not really living. Not pursuing any improvement. Not practicing anything that brings me joy. 

I had not seen Dr. J for almost 2 years when I discovered she is on my present health insurance. I've seen her once now. I think maybe I need to make an appt with her, my therapist, today. Peace & Joy.